im not going to make excuses for you its pretty clear youve already thought a lot about what happened and where you fit into it and anything ive got to say whether its right or not isnt going to budge you either way but its always hard to say no to friends when theyre stoked about something you dont want to let them down and you dont want to be left out and friends give each other grief all the time especially about crushes i mean fuck ive done it john and rose have teased me about mine whether they existed or not the consequences arent normally lethal and whatever share of guilt you should bear for hurting hannah i dont think blaming yourself for not taking surprise death into account really makes sense when its always been safe before
second thing the other times youve told parts of this story you always emphasized that the girls were joshs sisters and i suspected but it really brought home this time that look they were your friends too i understand that you feel like shit about what you did and YEAH they DIED thats a big deal but when you only call them joshs sisters you make the grief all about josh and let him own it solely when it sounds like yall lost two good friends too and so im thinking did you ever let yourself feel just sad about that instead of guilty and terrible because ashley its an ok thing to feel sad about
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two things
im not going to make excuses for you
its pretty clear youve already thought a lot about what happened and where you fit into it and anything ive got to say whether its right or not isnt going to budge you either way
but
its always hard to say no to friends when theyre stoked about something
you dont want to let them down
and you dont want to be left out
and friends give each other grief all the time especially about crushes i mean fuck
ive done it
john and rose have teased me about mine whether they existed or not
the consequences arent normally lethal and whatever share of guilt you should bear for hurting hannah i dont think blaming yourself for not taking surprise death into account really makes sense when its always been safe before
second thing
the other times youve told parts of this story you always emphasized that the girls were joshs sisters
and i suspected but it really brought home this time that
look
they were your friends too
i understand that you feel like shit about what you did and YEAH they DIED
thats a big deal
but when you only call them joshs sisters you make the grief all about josh and let him own it solely when it sounds like yall lost two good friends too
and so im thinking
did you ever let yourself feel just sad about that
instead of guilty and terrible
because ashley its an ok thing to feel sad about
im sorry you lost your friends