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ok
but you know when all my feelings are out and
getting worked through i guess
i'm not gonna let you off the hook
because YOU have a lot to work out too ok?

anyway uh
jeez i don't know
if i'm still going "from the beginning" then next comes the year of weird awkward drifting
where i still spent a lot of time with chris but things were strained
and i barely saw the others because the rest of us went to different schools
rarely spoke with josh
he dropped out of college
big blowup happened with the rest of the group too
sam barely talked to the rest of us since well hannah was her best friend
and mike and emily broke up and then mike and JESS started going out later
relationship drama all that but it was important because
it means emily started going out with matt and
it just threw off any remaining shreds of closeness anyone had

so like
we were all worried about josh
and we get this
video invitation
sometime in november
annual blackwood getaway
and he looked fine
saying we should get together and all have this
big party
like we used to
for him and for the twins
and just
it was on the anniversary of their death
how could any of us say no?