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dave mamahecking strider ([personal profile] callbacks) wrote2016-04-01 08:14 am

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what was growing up like for you
like
how was your childhood
were you happy
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[personal profile] loveisanopendoor 2016-04-01 01:48 pm (UTC)(link)
do you want the short answer or the long one because the short is

uh

pretty bad & absolutely not ^^;
loveisanopendoor: (Annoyed)

[personal profile] loveisanopendoor 2016-04-01 02:44 pm (UTC)(link)
[ AREN'T ALL ENDS OF THE SWORD MEAN...... ]

okay the long is i don't

entirely remember everything that happened which is part of what makes me so upset about it, stupid trolls!!!! >:T but more or less what happened was things were actually pretty good up until a certain point, but one night my sister and i were playing in the foyer doing our thing, y'know, as kids do

and there was an accident and i hit my head kind of hard and it looked bad

now here's where things get a little wonky

my parents in their infinite wisdom go to these trolls who are like "okay she's gonna be fine but we're gonna take away all of her memories because for some reason it's better that way (question mark?)" and my parents are like "well clearly the solution here is to separate anna and her sister for their entire lives (or at least until she can learn how to control her ice powers properly)"

now keep in mind i'm like five so i obviously don't get any say in this AT ALL and no one bothers to tell me what's happening because y'know why would they, i have no idea what's going on, i don't know if it's something that, like, I'M responsible for because one day my sister's playing with me and everythings normal and the next she won't even LOOK at me let alone open her door to talk to me about it all because my parents think it'd be better to keep us apart

it wasn't my sister's fault or anything of course!!! i don't know why my parents thought it'd be a good idea to basically keep her locked away from me but well that was my life for the next 13 years and as if THAT wasnt bad enough they closed the gates to the castle down and got rid of all the staff so no one could get in or out of the castle unless there were special circumstances so i was basically a prisoner in my own house/castle and let me tell you

a castle's nice

when you have to see the same walls for 13 years though i swear you think you're gonna go NUTS

and THEN my parents passed away in an accident at sea so i didn't even have THEM to kind of make it a little better

so this whole time i'm basically like "wait wth (what the heck) i'm a princess one day my prince will come, that's what happens in all these fairytales!!" but then i meet him at my sister's coronation and he's a

what's the most royal and sophisticated way to say "butthead" there must be a more colorful way that's still appropriate for a princes--you know what i'm not a princess here and he was a DICK

BUT THAT'S NOT CHILDHOOD ANYMORE SO REWIND JUST A BIT but i didn't even know there WAS an accident until recently so i basically spent that whole time thinking that like I did something wrong so that was Special and the WORST part THE ABSOLUTE WORST PART is that my sister STILL THINKS ITS HER FAULT like I CAN DEAL WITH LITERALLY EVERYTHING ELSE but my sister STILL feels guilty about it and just

UGH
loveisanopendoor: (Last time I brought a guy here she froze)

[personal profile] loveisanopendoor 2016-04-01 03:23 pm (UTC)(link)
[ BLAME HER POTTYMOUTH GF SHE'S RUBBING OFF ON HER ]

neither of us so much as spoke to anyone outside the castle for pretty much 13 years it was

It was terrible I'll be honest there's no other way to really describe how lonely that is until you experience it but as bad as it was for me I can't imagine how it must have been for her and I still feel like awful about it because neither of us deserved that but especially not her
loveisanopendoor: (I never knew why)

[personal profile] loveisanopendoor 2016-04-01 04:01 pm (UTC)(link)
RIGHT?! like omfg why couldn't they have just

told me

we could have worked something out as a family why did the whole thing have to be a secret if we worked something out together we definitely could have thought of something better than making her stay in her room and keeping us locked away but i just felt so like

betrayed by them i couldn't believe they would do such a horrible thing even if their intentions weren't necessarily bad i just

i dunno i just can't stand that they kept something like that from me let alone the entire kingdom, and i can't stand that they left both of us in the dark and so alone for so long

alone in our own house, we couldn't even support EACH OTHER like how messed up is that?!?!?!?! i'm sorry i didn't mean for this to turn into the "anna's life was a bit of a mess power hour"
loveisanopendoor: (Now what?)

[personal profile] loveisanopendoor 2016-04-01 04:42 pm (UTC)(link)
yeah, go right ahead, i wouldn't have responded if i didn't want to vent a little bit about it i mean this is kind of a lot to get off my chest but

i'll answer whatever you wanna know
loveisanopendoor: (Last time I brought a guy here she froze)

[personal profile] loveisanopendoor 2016-04-01 04:58 pm (UTC)(link)
i'm definitely upset with them but i could never ever hate them i mean they're my family and they were just trying to do what was best for my sister and me

the way they did it might not have been the best but their intentions were good, that said i'm LIVID not just because of the locking us away thing but also because like

this all happened because they wanted my sister to keep her powers a secret but

thats like denying a part of her exists and its an AMAZING part of her that i can't believe anyone would want to hide
loveisanopendoor: (Oops)

[personal profile] loveisanopendoor 2016-04-01 07:13 pm (UTC)(link)
i'm sure that's the kind of thing they were afraid of, like, if another kingdom found out or something, but that's definitely not worth them just kind of going "SHUT DOWN EVERYTHING" you know???
loveisanopendoor: (Embarrassed Smile)

[personal profile] loveisanopendoor 2016-04-02 04:24 am (UTC)(link)
we had like a very very small amount of servants kind of stay on board but even they basically just sort of did what they had to do

better than absolutely nobody but still, most days it sure FELT like a ghost town

i used to kind of make up my own adventures, it was pretty much my only way of keeping myself from like going crazy

debatable whether or not it worked, depending on who you're asking
loveisanopendoor: (Oh okay)

[personal profile] loveisanopendoor 2016-04-03 04:47 pm (UTC)(link)
i think a part of me always sort of got it

when i was really young of course i always thought i did something bad or a monster was keeping elsa trapped in there and i had to be like her knight in shining armor to save her, like joan of arc (who was/still is my idol)

when i started to become a teenager i started questioning a little more, "why can't i go outside", "what's out there that i can't see", my parents would get a little shorter with me sometimes

and then they passed away and all of a sudden i just had no one and i probably could have left if i wanted to but i didn't want to only because i'd be leaving elsa behind but she still wouldn't come out and it was just

a hard time for everyone
loveisanopendoor: (I never knew why)

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[personal profile] loveisanopendoor 2016-04-03 06:46 pm (UTC)(link)
i mostly just

try to be there for here whenever i can right now. a lot of stuff happened at her coronation when i found out about her powers but ever since then we started working a little bit harder to basically make up for lost time i mean

it's not always easy cause stuff from the past has a way of coming back to bite you sometimes but elsa knows that no matter what she does there's nothing that can ever be too bad or too upsetting that she can't talk to me about it, and that i don't think she has anything to be sorry for when it comes to everything that happened but even if she did i'd forgive her in a heartbeat

even so

it's just very sad y'know? to know that she still blames herself and beats herself up over something she didn't have any control over, over an accident that happened when i was five years old, over something our parents did because
loveisanopendoor: (Scared)

[personal profile] loveisanopendoor 2016-04-03 06:46 pm (UTC)(link)
omg it really was because they were AFRAID i don't know why it took me so long for that to click but it did just now

they were AFRAID of their own DAUGHTER

like how MESSED UP is that
loveisanopendoor: (Serious)

[personal profile] loveisanopendoor 2016-04-03 06:53 pm (UTC)(link)
THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT THEY DID

LITERALLY EXACTLY WHAT THEY DID THEY PASSED THAT FEAR ONTO HER AND THAT'S WHY

THAT'S WHY SHE'S SO SCARED OF IT AND JUST

HOW DID THIS NOT OCCUR TO ME BEFORE I'M REALLY MAD BUT IT'S LIKE

A CLEAR MAD, I KNOW WHY I'M MAD, I 500% GET IT NOW
loveisanopendoor: (Annoyed)

[personal profile] loveisanopendoor 2016-04-03 07:03 pm (UTC)(link)
no no no you misunderstand i said i 500% get it but i'm like 5000% mad about it!!!!!

and don't worry about my punching skills anyone who knows me will tell you the end of my fist is not somewhere you want to be ever

i'm not going to hit anything or anyone though i promise let me just

do some breathing, forgive me i'm like really excited but not like the good excited more like the "i am pure adrenaline right now and i want to yell at tombstones"

but i do hope this helped a little with um

whatever it is you're trying to figure out, you're a good listener
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