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[You'd think Dave would have learned his lesson about anonymity, but maybe learning doesn't stick so well at ass in the morning when he can't sleep. At least it doesn't seem like he's really trying to mask his identity, here. It's just...a plausible deniability thing, maybe. Probably, given the content of his message.]
what was growing up like for you
like
how was your childhood
were you happy
what was growing up like for you
like
how was your childhood
were you happy
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youre in good company
or youre in company anyway
i used to do the same thing kind of
not always the adventuring so much but i talked to myself a lot and made things up to entertain or distract myself
as a kid though did you know the situation was bad or did you only break it down later when you had something else to compare it to
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when i was really young of course i always thought i did something bad or a monster was keeping elsa trapped in there and i had to be like her knight in shining armor to save her, like joan of arc (who was/still is my idol)
when i started to become a teenager i started questioning a little more, "why can't i go outside", "what's out there that i can't see", my parents would get a little shorter with me sometimes
and then they passed away and all of a sudden i just had no one and i probably could have left if i wanted to but i didn't want to only because i'd be leaving elsa behind but she still wouldn't come out and it was just
a hard time for everyone
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yeah i understand that
so
i guess my last question is
where do you go from here?
how do you
make times better i guess
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try to be there for here whenever i can right now. a lot of stuff happened at her coronation when i found out about her powers but ever since then we started working a little bit harder to basically make up for lost time i mean
it's not always easy cause stuff from the past has a way of coming back to bite you sometimes but elsa knows that no matter what she does there's nothing that can ever be too bad or too upsetting that she can't talk to me about it, and that i don't think she has anything to be sorry for when it comes to everything that happened but even if she did i'd forgive her in a heartbeat
even so
it's just very sad y'know? to know that she still blames herself and beats herself up over something she didn't have any control over, over an accident that happened when i was five years old, over something our parents did because
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they were AFRAID of their own DAUGHTER
like how MESSED UP is that
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especially
especially since i think
from what you said and from what ive heard her say about stuff it sounds like they made her be afraid of HERSELF
and thats
thats NOT what parents are supposed to do
theyre supposed
theyre supposed to make their kids NOT scared
shit
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LITERALLY EXACTLY WHAT THEY DID THEY PASSED THAT FEAR ONTO HER AND THAT'S WHY
THAT'S WHY SHE'S SO SCARED OF IT AND JUST
HOW DID THIS NOT OCCUR TO ME BEFORE I'M REALLY MAD BUT IT'S LIKE
A CLEAR MAD, I KNOW WHY I'M MAD, I 500% GET IT NOW
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hey are you ok
like besides being 500% mad which i think is a reasonable percentage mad to be about this just for the record
are you going to punch something because if you are please use proper form and try not to hit anything harder than your own knuckles
or use protection
safety first
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and don't worry about my punching skills anyone who knows me will tell you the end of my fist is not somewhere you want to be ever
i'm not going to hit anything or anyone though i promise let me just
do some breathing, forgive me i'm like really excited but not like the good excited more like the "i am pure adrenaline right now and i want to yell at tombstones"
but i do hope this helped a little with um
whatever it is you're trying to figure out, you're a good listener
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no yeah it did
i uh
am probably having my own quiet personal crisis over it but dont worry about it its probably a good thing
just gonna shake in the dark for a while its fine
i hope you find some good tombstones to yell at??
at least the weather is nice for cemetery visits this time of year
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i didn't mean to dump all of it on you though like i know it's kind of uh
a lot
...
i'm so sorry i shouldn't have said anything
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no hey for real its fine
i mean
first of all i literally asked
and frankly i appreciate how like
open????
youve been with me
some people were trying to tiptoe around my feelings which is BIZARRE since im some anonymous rando asking invasive personal questions so why should they give a shit
but hearing all this really put some of my own crap into perspective so i guess
now i just gotta piece things together for myself
so yeah for real um
thank you
you helped a lot
and like if theres anything i can do to help you or your sister like
...
well ok i guess im anonymous so you wont be able to contact me
that was stupid
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it doesn't define elsa it doesn't define me and it doesn't define you, anonymous rando (*＾v＾*)
there was someone else anonymous on the network that i told something similar to recently they were saying how
they didn't know if they could move forward after making a mistake but really like no matter what happened during childhood or what, no matter how bad it was, you CAN move forward and if you want it hard enough and you have a good support system you WILL in time
it might not be easy, elsa's still dealing with her feelings even today, but she's getting better. some days she slips back and that's okay, it's natural, it happens, but she knows i'm there for her and we're both taking positive steps together and honestly that's more than enough i'm very very happy now
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anna
thanks
thanks for talking to me
that really helps to hear too
i hope you get to be the happiest person alive someday cause you should be
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you deserve to be happy too though!!! you really do! thank you for listening, it helped me sort some stuff out and i think it'll help a lot in the long run
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next time i talk to you ill just be me instead of playing phantom of the operating system
ttyl princess
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see you around friend!!! thanks again! <3