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Jade Harley ([personal profile] eclectictype) wrote in [personal profile] callbacks 2015-12-18 07:48 pm (UTC)

12/18 | morning

[All right. She can't type up a whole message and then delete it anymore. This isn't the same as before, there's a real need and want to talk. It's hard, but eventually Dave will get this message.]

so do you ever see a post in the wide and wonderful interweb and think
"wow is that person me or some genetic clone of me
how do they know this feeling i have so well"
and then you read comments and you kind of forget WHAT exactly you were thinking
and you just get sad
um



shit where was i going with this



dave
i dont remember what happened at home
but i feel like i did something bad
i feel like i did a lot of things i would not be proud of and that might have disappointed you
but also put you in the position of having to hold this information so i wouldnt find out


dave
i am so sorry
i thought if i just didnt bring up my doubts it would all be okay and nobody would have to worry
i was wrong
i did something bad
i probably SAID something bad too
maybe stuff that made you doubt how i feel about you and our friends?
theres a lot of stuff i didnt say to all of you in the past, though sometimes i wanted to talk about it, i didnt want to be a downer with my shitty lonely personal life
i dont want us to have secrets anymore, dave
you are one of my very best friends and i always felt a little less lonely when talking to you
now we are getting to go on a journey that isnt a convoluted chess game filled with death and time loops and clones
we cant fully appreciate this journey or each others company if theres things left unsaid

shit this went on a while
um
i will be in violet tomorrow
later




<3

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