fuck i ive been TRYING but i wasnt there and i fundamentally just dont get a lot of things about how his world works so i dunno when i say shit its easy for him to shrug it off
then maybe we just can't let him say those things I I know I don't know everything and this is all knew to me and I didn't see but god he told me not to talk to him anymore about it too fuck
if he just could feel like he had a success a moiraillegiance where he feels like he did the right thing even though he didn't FAIL since he feels like he did and until then just watch and listen comfort him when we can
if another troll were here one of the non shitty ones anyway like maybe kanaya or fuck i dont know even terezi or one of the dead ones they could goddamn tell him the business because i refuse to believe karkat vantas did anything wrong
i mean yeah we all kind of had one troll we were closest to and karkat was hers but she didnt live with them for three years like me and rose did so she just doesnt have as much exposure it might not work out
oh they can reconnect here at least? or I'm not sure what to tell him but maybe then you have the best shot at making him feel something other than this
ashley im not good at feelings shit for maybe obvious reasons what im saying is circumstances have left me the emotional range of a decapitated chicken i dont want to make it worse for him with my clumsy ass empathetically stunted bumblefuckery
I don't know Dave I'm kind of trying to do that myself figure out how to not be that but god dammit we're just fucking teenagers this isn't fair we shouldn't
okay okay okay okay he does he ever talk about this stuff with you? all this bullshit about this Gamzee guy?
not really? sort of a little but hell i dont know ashley theres just so much that happened to us and i already made him cry trying to help with other shit last week
it it's hard but shit I don't know I'm just trying to go off what I DIDN'T do so healthy communication that that's supposed to be how to help but if it just upsets him more
oh my god im actually the least qualified person in the world for this shit fuck maybe ill just wake him up at the first fart of dawn and get him to cry it out again he seemed to think that was a legitimate strategy last month
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what can i do
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I don't know HOW but we have to help him
help him feel like he's not just this horrible person who failed everyone
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ive been TRYING
but i wasnt there and i fundamentally just dont get a lot of things about how his world works so
i dunno when i say shit its easy for him to shrug it off
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we just can't let him say those things I
I know I don't know everything and this is all knew to me
and I didn't see but
god he told me not to talk to him anymore about it too
fuck
if he just could feel like he had a success
a moiraillegiance where he feels like he did the right thing even though he didn't FAIL since he feels like he did
and until then just watch and listen
comfort him when we can
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one of the non shitty ones anyway
like maybe kanaya
or fuck i dont know even terezi or one of the dead ones
they could goddamn tell him the business
because i refuse to believe karkat vantas did anything wrong
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if not
what about Jade? would he listen to her?
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yeah
we all kind of had one troll we were closest to and karkat was hers
but she didnt live with them for three years like me and rose did so she just doesnt have as much exposure
it might not work out
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they can reconnect here at least?
or
I'm not sure what to tell him
but maybe then you have the best shot at making him feel
something other than this
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me?
thats
ashley im not good at feelings shit
for maybe obvious reasons
what im saying is circumstances have left me the emotional range of a decapitated chicken
i dont want to make it worse for him with my clumsy ass empathetically stunted bumblefuckery
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I know
I mean
I kind of
got some of that but you
the one who has the best shot at helping him is his best friend
that's you
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with preemptive horrific embarrassment
or possibly terror
im not sure
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do you deny it?
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no
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and if there's anything his other friends can do I'm sure we will
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i really want him to be not fucked up
how do we get to be not fucked up
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I'm kind of
trying to do that myself figure out how to not be that but
god dammit we're just fucking teenagers this isn't fair
we shouldn't
okay
okay okay okay
he
does he ever talk about this stuff with you? all this
bullshit about this Gamzee guy?
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really?
sort of a little but
hell i dont know ashley theres just so much that happened to us and i already made him cry trying to help with other shit last week
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it's hard but
shit I don't know
I'm just trying to go off what I DIDN'T do
so healthy communication that
that's supposed to be how to help but if it just upsets him more
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fuck maybe ill just wake him up at the first fart of dawn and get him to cry it out again he seemed to think that was a legitimate strategy last month
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is there anyone we can ask for advice on this
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a grownup?
most of the grownups i know here are awkward and hilarious space soldiers
[Or literal Cain from the Bible.]
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we shouldn't have to do this all by ourselves
but he's
not used to adults to begin with is he
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neither are the rest of us i guess
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I'm sorry Dave
I wish I could make some of this easier
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this is the first time anyones ever even tried to help me with something like this so
thank you
it helps a lot
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