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[A delivery birb drops off a package with Dave today.
It's filled with a few snacks, some escape ropes and potions, and other useful items-- moreso for a human than a pokémon. After all, when taking care of Pokémon, it's a lot easier to forget your own stuff. There's even a set of warm socks! But nestled on top of said socks is a Happiny Meal Toy. A wind-up Electabuzz that trots around your table.
Oddly enough, though, there's no name on the note attached; just a little note that says 'Happy Birthday' and 'take care of yourself'.]
It's filled with a few snacks, some escape ropes and potions, and other useful items-- moreso for a human than a pokémon. After all, when taking care of Pokémon, it's a lot easier to forget your own stuff. There's even a set of warm socks! But nestled on top of said socks is a Happiny Meal Toy. A wind-up Electabuzz that trots around your table.
Oddly enough, though, there's no name on the note attached; just a little note that says 'Happy Birthday' and 'take care of yourself'.]
Edited 2015-12-04 01:19 (UTC)
[All right. She can't type up a whole message and then delete it anymore. This isn't the same as before, there's a real need and want to talk. It's hard, but eventually Dave will get this message.]
so do you ever see a post in the wide and wonderful interweb and think
"wow is that person me or some genetic clone of me
how do they know this feeling i have so well"
and then you read comments and you kind of forget WHAT exactly you were thinking
and you just get sad
um
shit where was i going with this
dave
i dont remember what happened at home
but i feel like i did something bad
i feel like i did a lot of things i would not be proud of and that might have disappointed you
but also put you in the position of having to hold this information so i wouldnt find out
dave
i am so sorry
i thought if i just didnt bring up my doubts it would all be okay and nobody would have to worry
i was wrong
i did something bad
i probably SAID something bad too
maybe stuff that made you doubt how i feel about you and our friends?
theres a lot of stuff i didnt say to all of you in the past, though sometimes i wanted to talk about it, i didnt want to be a downer with my shitty lonely personal life
i dont want us to have secrets anymore, dave
you are one of my very best friends and i always felt a little less lonely when talking to you
now we are getting to go on a journey that isnt a convoluted chess game filled with death and time loops and clones
we cant fully appreciate this journey or each others company if theres things left unsaid
shit this went on a while
um
i will be in violet tomorrow
later
<3
so do you ever see a post in the wide and wonderful interweb and think
"wow is that person me or some genetic clone of me
how do they know this feeling i have so well"
and then you read comments and you kind of forget WHAT exactly you were thinking
and you just get sad
um
shit where was i going with this
dave
i dont remember what happened at home
but i feel like i did something bad
i feel like i did a lot of things i would not be proud of and that might have disappointed you
but also put you in the position of having to hold this information so i wouldnt find out
dave
i am so sorry
i thought if i just didnt bring up my doubts it would all be okay and nobody would have to worry
i was wrong
i did something bad
i probably SAID something bad too
maybe stuff that made you doubt how i feel about you and our friends?
theres a lot of stuff i didnt say to all of you in the past, though sometimes i wanted to talk about it, i didnt want to be a downer with my shitty lonely personal life
i dont want us to have secrets anymore, dave
you are one of my very best friends and i always felt a little less lonely when talking to you
now we are getting to go on a journey that isnt a convoluted chess game filled with death and time loops and clones
we cant fully appreciate this journey or each others company if theres things left unsaid
shit this went on a while
um
i will be in violet tomorrow
later
<3
jade
no
look
alright yeah some heavy shit went down and i wasnt sure if this was the time and place to broach the subject
or maybe i just
didnt want to
but none of thats your fault ok?
and nothing that happened was your fault either im telling you that right here and now before we launch this discussion
thats a fact we have to establish before the discussion even gets to the stage where the scientists are building the rocket
this discussions still on the blueprint level while our resident einsteins gets their think on at nasa
nothing was your fault and you shouldnt think so either
ok?
ok
you didnt do anything wrong
no
look
alright yeah some heavy shit went down and i wasnt sure if this was the time and place to broach the subject
or maybe i just
didnt want to
but none of thats your fault ok?
and nothing that happened was your fault either im telling you that right here and now before we launch this discussion
thats a fact we have to establish before the discussion even gets to the stage where the scientists are building the rocket
this discussions still on the blueprint level while our resident einsteins gets their think on at nasa
nothing was your fault and you shouldnt think so either
ok?
ok
you didnt do anything wrong
lol yes
sorry dave
you are not very adept at being anonymous
i have read and understood your terms and conditions of this discussion, mr strider
[Even if it still gnaws at her that something bad did happen.]
sorry dave
you are not very adept at being anonymous
i have read and understood your terms and conditions of this discussion, mr strider
[Even if it still gnaws at her that something bad did happen.]
idk dave that really depends
are you ready to see me cry in person
because you might not be ready for that
and i am most likely going to cry
are you ready to see me cry in person
because you might not be ready for that
and i am most likely going to cry
crying here or crying around you also presents a problem
since i am currently traveling with a little kid
he probably does not know how to handle crying either
shit um
i am
["Totally used to crying alone"--Jesus Christ, Jade, no BACKSPACE THAT.]
im not sure
but
maybe
if you are there
and i can hug you
then you wont see me crying and it will be okay???
since i am currently traveling with a little kid
he probably does not know how to handle crying either
shit um
i am
["Totally used to crying alone"--Jesus Christ, Jade, no BACKSPACE THAT.]
im not sure
but
maybe
if you are there
and i can hug you
then you wont see me crying and it will be okay???
[Dave's throat feels funny just thinking about it. And not funny in a ha ha way, funny in a kind of terrible, how do I make it stop kind of way.]
yeah
alright
so i guess ill just save it till tomorrow then
when you see me
and i see you obviously
just get each other in all this mutual vision all day long
yeah
alright
so i guess ill just save it till tomorrow then
when you see me
and i see you obviously
just get each other in all this mutual vision all day long
okay
dave?
i am not upset with you for trying to keep it secret
you were not doing it maliciously
and honestly i would have done the same thing
i dont want you to be sad or hurting
dave?
i am not upset with you for trying to keep it secret
you were not doing it maliciously
and honestly i would have done the same thing
i dont want you to be sad or hurting
hahahahahahaha
hhah
i
still have dreams about that
if we are doing full disclosure
you
my grandpa
guns
that idea hadnt even occurred to me
hhah
i
still have dreams about that
if we are doing full disclosure
you
my grandpa
guns
that idea hadnt even occurred to me
Ken finally stopped trying to stay awake.
So.
Hey, I kinda owe you an explanation on some things. Like "yes I've experienced a disproportionate amount of violence in Death City."
And outside of it, too. I've been to Russia and Italy before, almost got thrown off of London Bridge by a werewolf. It's not entirely accurate to say that just *bombs* were involved, though there are a lot of people pretty adept with bombs, there was knives and claws and chainsaws, all sorts of stuff.
Just, you know, whatever.
Basically if you can imagine something really horrible happening to someone, outside of dying, it's happened to me.
Shockingly, no, it's not because I'm from a place called Death City and it's some metaphor for the afterlife or Hell, the name is just a coincidence.
Sorry, I'm rambling. You probably won't understand half of this crap.
So.
Hey, I kinda owe you an explanation on some things. Like "yes I've experienced a disproportionate amount of violence in Death City."
And outside of it, too. I've been to Russia and Italy before, almost got thrown off of London Bridge by a werewolf. It's not entirely accurate to say that just *bombs* were involved, though there are a lot of people pretty adept with bombs, there was knives and claws and chainsaws, all sorts of stuff.
Just, you know, whatever.
Basically if you can imagine something really horrible happening to someone, outside of dying, it's happened to me.
Shockingly, no, it's not because I'm from a place called Death City and it's some metaphor for the afterlife or Hell, the name is just a coincidence.
Sorry, I'm rambling. You probably won't understand half of this crap.
but anyway
its not like i dont understand
im raising my eyebrow at some of this shit but thats mostly because you literally met a werewolf in london and all i can wonder is if anyone informed warren zevon about the copyright infringement
but i get having had to go through some brutal and ridiculous crap
and not wanting to talk about it
so you dont owe me an explanation or anything unless you want to
its not like i dont understand
im raising my eyebrow at some of this shit but thats mostly because you literally met a werewolf in london and all i can wonder is if anyone informed warren zevon about the copyright infringement
but i get having had to go through some brutal and ridiculous crap
and not wanting to talk about it
so you dont owe me an explanation or anything unless you want to
Yo, Pajama-Boy.
[Greetings and formalities are for people that aren't blunt as a kick in the ass.]
To be fair to that werewolf, he's an immortal slab of meat with a terrible sense of direction and ice magic, so I think it deviates enough to slide by.
I don't mind talking about it, it's not a thing I sit in dark corners and reflect about. I just don't like making people uncomfortable because, yeah? I guess it's not normal in other worlds for kids to pick up weapons and fight monsters. And Ken already knows about it, too, like--he's my best friend, of course he knows--but I didn't want to launch into the whole thing on his Gear. Then he'd have to read it later.
And he's already going to have to read about my stupid dad and ghost pee. So it's pushing the boundaries of best friend privileges is what I'm saying.
[Greetings and formalities are for people that aren't blunt as a kick in the ass.]
To be fair to that werewolf, he's an immortal slab of meat with a terrible sense of direction and ice magic, so I think it deviates enough to slide by.
I don't mind talking about it, it's not a thing I sit in dark corners and reflect about. I just don't like making people uncomfortable because, yeah? I guess it's not normal in other worlds for kids to pick up weapons and fight monsters. And Ken already knows about it, too, like--he's my best friend, of course he knows--but I didn't want to launch into the whole thing on his Gear. Then he'd have to read it later.
And he's already going to have to read about my stupid dad and ghost pee. So it's pushing the boundaries of best friend privileges is what I'm saying.
speaking as a world champion best friend
seriously ive got at least five bro trophies
which we in the business call brophies but i figured i ought to be clear
nothing pushes the boundaries of best friend privileges
nothing innocent like that anyway
like its cool of you to respect his turf in that manner but its probably fine
its something he can stare at in bewilderment and then laugh at later when he wakes up properly
ghost pee is inherently funny dont worry about it
seriously ive got at least five bro trophies
which we in the business call brophies but i figured i ought to be clear
nothing pushes the boundaries of best friend privileges
nothing innocent like that anyway
like its cool of you to respect his turf in that manner but its probably fine
its something he can stare at in bewilderment and then laugh at later when he wakes up properly
ghost pee is inherently funny dont worry about it
Edited (WELL THEN) 2016-01-29 19:51 (UTC)
Ken's not that kind of guy.
[Not meaning he's some pinnacle of good taste or anything (he's not) but that his reaction would be more akin to...confusion and questioning of why this is even a topic.]
Anyway, that's all I really wanted to bring up. I said I'd talk about it later and didn't want to leave you hanging, so here I am explaining it later.
Unless you had any questions? I don't mind answering questions, I try not to be a cagey shit about that stuff anymore.
[Not meaning he's some pinnacle of good taste or anything (he's not) but that his reaction would be more akin to...confusion and questioning of why this is even a topic.]
Anyway, that's all I really wanted to bring up. I said I'd talk about it later and didn't want to leave you hanging, so here I am explaining it later.
Unless you had any questions? I don't mind answering questions, I try not to be a cagey shit about that stuff anymore.
even if you were i respect peoples unalienable right to be cagey shits about things
but
[And he takes some time to formulate what exactly it is he wants to ask.]
ok like
all that stuff you mentioned
did you choose to get involved in that or did it just kind of happen to you
but
[And he takes some time to formulate what exactly it is he wants to ask.]
ok like
all that stuff you mentioned
did you choose to get involved in that or did it just kind of happen to you
Yes...in that I thought it was what I wanted to get involved in it, no in that I was born into the circumstances that led to all of it.
Okay, so
Kids in my world, some of them end up very different, they're born with the ability to either turn into weapons or able to wield those weapons--sensitivity to the supernatural, weird abilities, all of that. Our former leader, Lord Death, brought all of these kids together in a school to teach them how to fight. Kill or be killed, all that stuff.
I thought it was what I wanted because I was doing like my mom and protecting people. Having thought about it here, sometimes I wonder if it was really all necessary that we had to be so young and fight in this "war" Lord Death started with the Witches.
So, the long and short of it is: yes, I was taught to want to get involved in that, and no it just happened to me until I got used to it. Like it was normal. People like me don't usually live past 30.
Okay, so
Kids in my world, some of them end up very different, they're born with the ability to either turn into weapons or able to wield those weapons--sensitivity to the supernatural, weird abilities, all of that. Our former leader, Lord Death, brought all of these kids together in a school to teach them how to fight. Kill or be killed, all that stuff.
I thought it was what I wanted because I was doing like my mom and protecting people. Having thought about it here, sometimes I wonder if it was really all necessary that we had to be so young and fight in this "war" Lord Death started with the Witches.
So, the long and short of it is: yes, I was taught to want to get involved in that, and no it just happened to me until I got used to it. Like it was normal. People like me don't usually live past 30.
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