anything purple and or with tentacles especially if it would ebony darkness dementia raven way nightmares for a solid decade also cats what about your friend
all the sharp ones i know theres some bugs that have knifes on their hands and the plant ones too maybe? they wouldn't catch those though theyd get all really strong ones i know theyd like battling a lot they wanted to fight all the time even for dumb stuff
maybe they dont really like humans i think im the only one theyre okay with theyre mad at a lot of monsters too not the same way but theyre really grumpy :( it was a lot of resets before they really liked me either but i kept i know why they didnt like me i dont think they really forgave me for it
[Dave gives that the pause it deserves, going over the words until they really mean something, until they accumulate a fraction of the weight they must hold for Frisk.
Dave's killed lots of monsters.
He's never killed something who took a name for him.]
[Scared. Ha ha. The human, the Anomaly, scared of a monster. When just a child could defeat even their greatest warriors, what threat could they even be, really?]
she was too she was trying to keep me safe i can come back i should have i should have tried harder but i just kept going anyway and i kept getting more love and i i stopped caring it was just easier
[They remember the numb feeling washing through their mind with each kill. More distance, more strength. Easier to make the next kill, to take a life and move on like it was nothing. Like it's just a game.]
the stuff we do when were put into extraordinary situations terrifying and dangerous and sometimes when our lifes on the line i mean none of that is going to go away but its not the whole of who you are youre a good person and you dont want to hurt anyone and you dont have to make excuses for anyone else either you already do so much to protect them now surviving back then wasnt and isnt wrong
but i dont die i never die it always goes back even when i tried to it i always go back nothing can stop it i should have kept trying from the beginning i should have tried to save everyone
[It feels like spitting in Dave's face. They know he's just trying to help, that he wants to protect them, but...he didn't see. He only knows the mask they wear now, and he thinks it's who they are. He never saw the selfish thing that lies underneath.]
im letting this go for now but you should think about it ok? maybe even ask other people you can do it anonymously if you need to ive learned a lot myself that way
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and or with tentacles
especially if it would ebony darkness dementia raven way nightmares for a solid decade
also cats
what about your friend
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i know theres some bugs that have knifes on their hands
and the plant ones too maybe?
they wouldn't catch those though
theyd get all really strong ones
i know theyd like battling a lot
they wanted to fight all the time even for dumb stuff
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but man she loved winning
maybe theyd get along
her and your friend
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they dont really like humans
i think im the only one theyre okay with
theyre mad at a lot of monsters too
not the same way but
theyre really grumpy :(
it was a lot of resets before they really liked me either
but i kept
i know why they didnt like me
i dont think they really forgave me for it
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do you want to talk about it?
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i killed monsters
a lot of times
i killed mom
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Dave's killed lots of monsters.
He's never killed something who took a name for him.]
you were scared
[Not a question.
Not an excuse, either.]
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she was too
she was trying to keep me safe
i can come back i should have
i should have tried harder
but i just kept going anyway
and i kept getting more love and i
i stopped caring
it was just easier
[They remember the numb feeling washing through their mind with each kill. More distance, more strength. Easier to make the next kill, to take a life and move on like it was nothing. Like it's just a game.]
and they had to watch me do it
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im so sorry
you shouldnt have had to go through something like that
or had to make those choices
you or your friend or your family
thats
egregiously fucked up
frisk
i need you to listen to me though
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they
the monsters needed souls
and humans already took the king and queens children from them
everyone was hurting
what is it?
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terrifying and dangerous and sometimes when our lifes on the line
i mean none of that is going to go away
but
its not the whole of who you are
youre a good person and you dont want to hurt anyone and you dont have to make excuses for anyone else either
you already do so much to protect them now
surviving back then wasnt and isnt wrong
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i never die it always goes back
even when i tried to it
i always go back
nothing can stop it
i should have kept trying from the beginning
i should have tried to save everyone
[It feels like spitting in Dave's face. They know he's just trying to help, that he wants to protect them, but...he didn't see. He only knows the mask they wear now, and he thinks it's who they are. He never saw the selfish thing that lies underneath.]
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why does that make it entirely your problem?
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its my responsibility
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should get to be the ones protected once in a while
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[It's a few minutes before Frisk responds.]
its okay
i can handle it
you dont have to worry
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im letting this go for now
but you should think about it ok?
maybe even ask other people
you can do it anonymously if you need to
ive learned a lot myself that way
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maybe
youre a really good friend dave
thank you
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i mean it