yes i know its not normal but its the world i was born into so what else am i gonna do cry about it? it was like five years ago i have better things to do than ruminate on the unadulterated baloneyshit mindfuck the majority of my existence has been when theres nothing i can even do about it now
You do. And that's a way of thinking that your universe conditioned into you, because your natural means of addressing and resolving any conflict presented to you is through the determination of an action, and the execution of that action.
I'm not saying it's a wrong approach. On the contrary, I think it's one that's served you very well. When people are...mistreated by the environment that surrounds them, they erect defenses against it, and become tempered by it, and grow strong.
You remind me of someone very strong, with the way that you talk about things like this.
Has anyone ever told you that you're ALLOWED to cry about it? That you would be justified in crying about it, if you wanted or needed to? Because you are, far moreso than you seem to realize.
jesus christ ok yes back home i go to therapy and junk and we do get into this sometimes but honestly its like the least of my fantastic and hilariously deep seated issues you dont have to play that role with me dude ive gotten the useful coping mechanisms talk before god this is why i dont talk about doomed timelines
look no offense dr rolute but im a big boy with my own support network and im pretty sure youre not that kind of doctor ok? youre welcome for the intro to sburban game mechanics but you dont have to pretend to think im even a remotely ok and well adjusted individual for it i just dont want to talk about its impact on me personally is all
never wouldve guessed no harm done though man at least youre not the poor dude i almost headbutted in the donuts because he dared to imply i could use some security and comfort when meridiana and i first showed up here
well no it was december ninth or something here so i ended up christmassing twice BUT THE POINT IS i didnt get to open ANY of alpha christmases presents and thats terrible
Perhaps so, but would it not have been worse to have opened all of them yet had no opportunity to enjoy any of them before immediately being whisked here?
At least this way you're suffering only from the suspense, not from the acquisition and subsequent loss.
no its definitely worse not knowing a because before i open the box it could be anything and that means literally everything is in the box in its unchecked state i could have had it alllllllllll etc and b because opening the present is the best part who cares about actually possessing the shit i mean i do because i like stuff but when stuff is also proof that this person i like appreciates me and thinks of me and wants to improve my immediate future by presenting me with this object they think i should have stuff is five decillion times more awesome so at least if i got to open my presents id know what my people thought id appreciate this year
if i cant use fancy theory to hypothetically obtain frankly ridonkulous amounts of material loot then what is fancy theory even for ive had it used against me often enough
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but its the world i was born into so what else am i gonna do
cry about it?
it was like five years ago i have better things to do than ruminate on the unadulterated baloneyshit mindfuck the majority of my existence has been when theres nothing i can even do about it now
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I'm not saying it's a wrong approach. On the contrary, I think it's one that's served you very well. When people are...mistreated by the environment that surrounds them, they erect defenses against it, and become tempered by it, and grow strong.
You remind me of someone very strong, with the way that you talk about things like this.
Has anyone ever told you that you're ALLOWED to cry about it? That you would be justified in crying about it, if you wanted or needed to? Because you are, far moreso than you seem to realize.
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ok yes
back home i go to therapy and junk and we do get into this sometimes
but honestly its like the least of my fantastic and hilariously deep seated issues
you dont have to play that role with me dude ive gotten the useful coping mechanisms talk before
god this is why i dont talk about doomed timelines
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Very good, you seem to have things well under control, then. And I appreciate the education into the subject, it was...illuminating.
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no offense dr rolute but im a big boy with my own support network and im pretty sure youre not that kind of doctor
ok?
youre welcome for the intro to sburban game mechanics but you dont have to pretend to think im even a remotely ok and well adjusted individual for it
i just dont want to talk about its impact on me personally is all
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And you do have my apologies. I'm afraid I'm not always the best at keeping my opinions to myself, as it were.
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no harm done though man
at least youre not the poor dude i almost headbutted in the donuts because he dared to imply i could use some security and comfort when meridiana and i first showed up here
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also hes a nice dude
runs the coffee shop
very nosy and italian
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I take it the nosy part is what nearly earned him the headbutt to the donuts.
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i wasnt at my best
i got dragged here from CHRISTMAS MORNING
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BUT THE POINT IS
i didnt get to open ANY of alpha christmases presents
and thats terrible
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At least this way you're suffering only from the suspense, not from the acquisition and subsequent loss.
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a because before i open the box it could be anything and that means literally everything is in the box in its unchecked state
i could have had it alllllllllll etc
and b because opening the present is the best part who cares about actually possessing the shit
i mean i do because i like stuff
but when stuff is also proof that this person i like appreciates me and thinks of me and wants to improve my immediate future by presenting me with this object they think i should have
stuff is five decillion times more awesome
so at least if i got to open my presents id know what my people thought id appreciate this year
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Because it doesn't matter so much what you get out of it, just that you're getting something at all?
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who said im in love with a crane game machine
i have a fiancee
who is not a crane game machine
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Fell in love, figuratively. Became enamored with. Enjoys.
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yeah probably
i really like stuff
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ive had it used against me often enough
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