ok since were implementing this full disclosure shit yeah no im probably not ready to see you cry in person???? thats tripping all sorts of distress alarms in my nervous system but like i mean would you rather me be there if you do
crying here or crying around you also presents a problem since i am currently traveling with a little kid he probably does not know how to handle crying either shit um i am
["Totally used to crying alone"--Jesus Christ, Jade, no BACKSPACE THAT.]
im not sure but maybe if you are there and i can hug you then you wont see me crying and it will be okay???
[Dave's throat feels funny just thinking about it. And not funny in a ha ha way, funny in a kind of terrible, how do I make it stop kind of way.]
yeah alright so i guess ill just save it till tomorrow then when you see me and i see you obviously just get each other in all this mutual vision all day long
i am not upset with you for trying to keep it secret you were not doing it maliciously and honestly i would have done the same thing i dont want you to be sad or hurting
i can still keep my trap shut you know you dont have to hear about it if you dont want to i just didnt want you to feel like i was lying to you or ..... doing what i did on lofaf
listen jade uh ill talk to you tomorrow ok ive got to take care of some things and then hey youll be here before i know it sort of like the egbertian sweet sixteen reunion we were supposed to have in the first place so ill see you ok
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are you ready to see me cry in person
because you might not be ready for that
and i am most likely going to cry
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thats tripping all sorts of distress alarms in my nervous system
but
like
i mean
would you rather me be there if you do
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since i am currently traveling with a little kid
he probably does not know how to handle crying either
shit um
i am
["Totally used to crying alone"--Jesus Christ, Jade, no BACKSPACE THAT.]
im not sure
but
maybe
if you are there
and i can hug you
then you wont see me crying and it will be okay???
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yeah
alright
so i guess ill just save it till tomorrow then
when you see me
and i see you obviously
just get each other in all this mutual vision all day long
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dave?
i am not upset with you for trying to keep it secret
you were not doing it maliciously
and honestly i would have done the same thing
i dont want you to be sad or hurting
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i can still keep my trap shut you know
you dont have to hear about it if you dont want to
i just didnt want you to feel like i was lying to you or
.....
doing what i did on lofaf
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hhah
i
still have dreams about that
if we are doing full disclosure
you
my grandpa
guns
that idea hadnt even occurred to me
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i do too
listen jade uh
ill talk to you tomorrow ok
ive got to take care of some things and then hey youll be here before i know it
sort of like the egbertian sweet sixteen reunion we were supposed to have in the first place
so
ill see you
ok
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bye dave
<3